BRINGING PASSION OUT OF THE SHADOWS

Can you feel it? Now is the time to expose the aspects of Self that we have hidden away for fear that they may be too much, too intense, or unacceptable to others.

For me, that means sharing with the world how delicious and tantalizing I find feminine energy, beauty, and power. For most of my life, I have been terrified of the prospect that women know that I- God Forbid!- find them intensely attractive. I was so afraid that if my attraction and passion and desire for the feminine was to be known and received, I would be perceived as a creep, a monster, a predator, an animal.

So I hid that part of me away, stuffed it deep down into a shadowy corner of my heart where no one could see it- including me. So I walked around, desperately yearning for relationship and companionship and yet never being able to find it because my true desire was forbidden to my conscious awareness. No wonder my romantic life has been so painful and disappointing- the very thing that would make it magical and electric was relegated to the shadow realms of my subconscious!

My only serious relationship, which ended many years ago, only happened because my partner- a total badass- had the courage to take a hammer and chisel to the seemingly endless layers of egoic armor and defenses I had unconsciously constructed around my heart to avoid the erotic passion that my mind had labeled as off-limits. Her energy was “Cut the bullshit, dude. You are so lovable and passionate and you’re pretending that you’re not. Now, let me swing this flaming sword through all your bullshit masculine armor so you can receive my love and you can feel your love for me.”

I am so grateful that my ex-partner had the ovaries to break down all my bullshit and refuse to let me ignore the tender, gentle, intensely passionate and loving being that I am at my core. We ended our relationship many years ago, but I will always carry a deep love and gratitude to her for daring to see who I truly am even when I didn’t have the balls to see it in myself. We were not destined to be lovers for life, but my love for her remains forever undying.

Thank you to all of the badass women in this world who ferociously and lovingly tear down the walls of masculine self-imprisonment. We appreciate you more than words could ever express.